sometimes the sunniest days are the worst

I know.  The worst days are the ones where the weather is perfect, where there is no pressure to make that telephone call or finish that project.  Because you are at risk, because you can only think of doing something, anything, to stop the pain, start with this simple action:  STOP.

Stop

Take a deep breath.

Observe (even if observing is painful, observe and continue to gently breathe)

Proceed.

Now you are a bit closer to allowing yourself to recognize that you do have choices.  You have the choice of acknowledging that there are some things in your life you wish you could change, or forget AND you have the choice to recognize something as simple as the sun is shining and you can feel the breeze on your face.

STOP.  Stop now and be kind to yourself.  Let yourself feel sad and know that your health and welfare matter to a lot more people than you realize.